“why am i so scared to tell you that im upset? why am i afraid to tell you im crying? Because im terrified that you wont care. im scared that youll tell me im being stupid. I just want you to care. I just want you to like me. and what if this makes you not like me? what if you dont want to talk to me because i complain too much. what it what if what if… just kill me i dont want to be afraid anymore.”